Today we spent two hours at the park. The sun was shining down on Toddler T and I. We dug holes in the sandbox and built castles. He swung on the swings and surprised me at how strong he's gotten since the summer. Toddler T needed the fresh air and I needed to feel the sunshine on my face. I know it benefited us tremendously even if in completely different ways.
My son is good for my soul. He talks from the minute his little eyes open in the morning and I'm pretty sure I ask 8,700 different "Why" questions before lunch. Lately he has been having flail on the floor meltdowns over the wrong straw, shirt, snack or any other difference of opinion. We also put the breaks on potty training. It was becoming a power struggle. So, I handed him a diaper and told him to tell me when he wanted to try sitting on the toilet again. There are days when I am counting down the minutes until he takes a nap and I've often told Mr. T that I lose the ability to speak coherent sentences by 5pm. But in the midst of him trying to figure out his independence, he will remind me that he is still my sweet baby.
Today we were leaving the park. I was buckling Toddler T into his car seat and I was about to shut the door. And I heard this little, tiny voice. "Mama, I need to give you a hug and a kiss, too." It should be known that I have been Mom or Mommy for almost 2 years. In the past week, my little/big boy has started to go back to Mama. I've never corrected him and probably never will.
Nothing went away, nothing magically changed. But today was 70 degrees and sunny and I had the best and most wonderfully ordinary day.
That's a very cute story - today is supposed to be warm too, so I hope you enjoy the weather again!
ReplyDeleteHi... here from Cyclesistas :)) I also have secondary IF... and am doing IVF with a toddler at home. Sorry to hear what you're going through... this is certainly a roller-coaster that we're on :( I have a private blog but happy for fellow blogging IFers to join me :) Just email me via newyearmum@gmail.com and I'll send you an access link... my updater blog (to get posts via Reader or RSS is newyearmum2.blogspot.com. Looking forward to sharing this journey with you xoxo
ReplyDeletehey meyiss... caught up on what is going on! hoping you feel encouraged with your doctor's plan. i really do like the fact that you responded decently to clomid! so glad to hear you are having a therapeutic week in the son with the little guy. yove you, fyuck
ReplyDeleteThanks Fyuck-y. I'm hanging in there! The sunshine makes things much better.
DeleteMatt had a regression to Mama too and I loved every single moment. I'm glad that you're still seeing the good things...
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