72 hours to go.

After 13 months it is crazy to think that we may get a final answer on adding to our family in less than 72 hours. I am still a bit crazy (OK- a LOT) but I'm trying to hang on to sanity. My biggest coping skill this week was staying super-busy. By staying on the go, I haven't had too much time to focus on symptoms and whether or not I was or was not feeling anything. I am having a really hard time staying positive, but am grateful for those around me who are. I am living vicariously through them in their positivity. I remain neutral but hopeful.

As Beta-Day approaches, I've realized that I've gotten myself in a little bind. Mr. T and I have decided to be fairly upfront with our struggles with infertility. We have shared and you all have read, step by step where we are. I don't regret our decision to go public for a second. I have found a level of support in the blogging community that I never knew existed. I have also found, that by keeping our family and friends in the loop, our ties have gotten stronger, relationships have grown and I feel closer to many more people. With all that said, I'm not sure how we'll share our news on Sunday. Either way, there will be so many emotions..... 

So if I duck out for a while, don't assume the worst.