Pulling the Trigger

I got the call this afternoon. Tonight is the night. HCG trigger shot given tonight at 8:30pm with my egg retrieval scheduled for Sunday at 8:30am.

I have been unusually calm today. I attribute that to two things.

1. I got to spend the day with one of my oldest friends, Minnie. We met freshman year in college and continue to speak daily. It also helps that our children are 6 weeks apart. Minnie was one of the first people that I called after the first ectopic pregnancy and she then went on to share the information with our group of friends so I didn't have to.  She has been by my side through this whole process and has fielded one or two phone calls from me as I was hysterically crying. But today she was my fresh air. Even better our kids (who have known each other since birth) finally got the memo that they might have fun when they play together AND that they don't have to fight over every single toy in the playroom. She reminded me throughout the day- that all it takes is one.  
2.  I received a phone call today from my doctor. I do believe that I might need to change his name from Dr. Neutral to Dr. Compassion. Having come from a clinic where I had to plead for a quick phone call from my doctor, I was floored that he called me, personally to come up with a game plan. He actually said, "I'm calling to see how you are doing." Then we got down to business. We reviewed the facts. I have 3 follicles. They may not all contain viable eggs. I may never do better than this. Therefore, it is time to retrieve them.  Then he said the second, most wonderful thing. "You have been on such a long and hard road. This cycle has been really hard and I am going to see you through it. I'll be with you on Sunday morning."

That was what I needed. I know my odds won't change but I have the feeling that his heart is in this. I really believe that he is pulling for me, no matter how much of a long shot. I can sleep better knowing that regardless of how the follicles need to be retrieved, he will find them. He will even look for immature follicles and allow them the chance to mature in the lab. We will not leave any stones unturned. 

But now it is done. My part of this IVF cycle offically concluded with my self-administration of the HCG trigger shot. I have given this my all and I now turn it over to a higher power.  

All it takes is one. All it takes is one. All it takes is one. All it takes is one. All it takes is one.